.. 02:20 hrs

OKAY ILL DO MY REFLECTIONS ON THE 1ST OF JAN (if i find the time)
actually ive had it all written (about 6-7pages i would think) in my diary, but okay until i find the time then, dont wanna make this post too long, because i already have quite a mouthful to say.

OKAY LISTEN, IF YOU'RE OBVIOUSLY NOT SOMEONE IMA THANK, then you jolly well dont read this because it'll be a colossal waste of YOUR time, &your electricity& a bit of your life for feeling angry that XR never write about you. aiya in short, there are no secrets whatsoever in these chunks so just get a life.

THESE ARE THE PEOPLE WHO'VE, IN A WAY OR ANOTHER, MADE AN IMPACT IN MY LIFE THIS YEAR, OR SO FAR,

Daniel, Always the first i'd thank, for so many little things you've done for me. Every single time we chill you'd always tell people "cannot lar, we chilling with xr", "chill with xr okay", &all other variations. That bit of gesture really made me feel important. You're the sort of brother anyone would like to have, the only person to knock sense into my head by lecturing me back in sec3. I looked at the vday gifts that day, &realised your card really damn funny, (OKAY RANDOM) Ah screw the materialistic shit. When I write depressing shit you'd come& tell me you feel you cant do anything, but I really appreciate the concern. I'll remember our NS-pact, love you brother ! ;D

Audrey, Said this a million times before, it's amazing how we managed to develop into really close friends when we weren't so back in primary sch. You're so cuckoo you can make ANYONE's day. You're the sort of girlfriend I can share my shit with without hesitation. I LOVE oogling at hunks with you, although our tastes always differ ! You've always been here for me, and I love how you can read me like a book, "I knew you couldnt.." I'll also remember how I received some msg& the first person i thought of showing it to was you. Also the night where we lay down reading each other's msgs ! Not forgetting all the late-night talks the three of us had within this year. I LOVE YOU BABE !

Han Loong, I really thank Siang for getting you into our conference that night last year, &your initiative too, such that we turned out fine friends eventually ! True enough, you're the only one with a gigantic mass of an ego& a willingness to let me dent it everytime i feel like doing so. Also one of the rare few that exchange sarcasm& wit with me. &Thanks for the redundant Amath tution ! &all the times we crashed your place. &how you always let me read your phone, although there are countless scandalous shit in there, i see that as a bit of trust. (AYE PRETTY PRETTY....) You& Nehji are the only two people that can get horny with me HAHA ! You've been with me through most of my shit this year, always knowing my patterns, "Biatch, stop appearing offline", &telling me to talk cause you're listening. I made you tear last year cause of the email, &this year you made me, just thinking how wonderful a friend you've been. Thanks for the love& the trust, y'knw I love& trust you too ! (:

Nehji, Geographically-Closest Bro ! So amusing because we have a whole collection of names for each other .__. HAHA your joker face always makes people laugh lar ! It really seems like a long time since this friendship started. I can get pissed with you, tell you& let it all go immediately because that's how our friendship works. Time& again we ap each other but things always turn out fine. The shit we had recently made me realise I shouldnt take concern for granted. (i know you very concerned) Thanks for all the chillings, at macs, or at comfortable sofas HAHA. It's good talking to you because we're very open about stuff &we'd always be listening to each other. Thanks for all the encouragement, in the form of scribbled pencil messages here& there. It's always a pleasant surprise. REMEMBER OUR FALALA KIDS XMAS SONG HAAHAH. Much love !

Yan Ling, Girlfriend, you're always the one I think of first if I want to go out ! Our dates can range from notsoeventful ones to gay&memorable ones. I wouldn't say this year's share of experiences brought us closer because we're already close enough& Im glad our friendship didnt fade. It's really a pity because both of us are listeners& not talkers, so we dont share much, but y'knw I love you ! Thank you for sharing some of my shit when I needed someone to turn to, you never know how much it means to me !

Dii, Dianne Renee Tan I swear the both of us got muchmuch closer this year after hanging out& chatting more often. Vying over MY Cristiano, our little Abdulaziz joke, and all the eyecandy we share really strengthened our friendship ;p It's so easy to talk to you, your replies are always warm& friendly. You're also one with whom I can talk about deeper stuff, because you're a sensitive& thoughtful girl. Thanks for always making me laugh, love you Ramli !

Eunice, You& I both, also got a hell lot of names for each other. Sometimes you remind me of Nehji haha. We chill from sec2 until now leh, just that our chilling place upgrade from tm mac to Audz house HAHA. I may niao you so much but that's because I know you can tolerate all these without getting angry, so in a way I wont have to restrain myself in front of you ! You always like to suan me& beat me up like a pau, but without you I'd have been deprived of a confidante& an entertainer ! EVERYTHING YOU DO, MAKES PEOPLE LAUGH LAR PLS AHHAAH. TYLOVEU POWCIG !!!!!!!!

Vicki, You're another one to whom I can talk about my problems. Actually, you're a pretty good listener and that's why everytime you ask I'd be inclined to share. Vicki vicki vicki, your standards so high ! I really hope the both of us can get into soccer so we can go entertain nat hahaha.. NAH I LOVE YOU CRAZY GIRL !

Weijie, STOP ARROWING MANU LAR. But hey it's kinda memorable how we jump at every chance to take a dig at each other's favourite teams. I know you're a nice person, always willing to listen& trust, but your ego's as gay as Loonger's. Really appreciate your erh, retentiveness hahaha, when I need someone to rant to thank you !

4A kids, Mich, Huiyi, Huiling, Chin& so on, thanks y'all, for making my life in 4A much better& memorable enough to savour. I'd have died there without you guys. Although I've remained my usual antisocial self often, it feels good to know im always remembered for outings. Thank you for taking the chance to know me better.

Chip, Cheryl, Qian, Thank you for making every effort to keep in contact ! Especially chip, always here for me when Im in need of entertainment or a listening ear. You guys I will love for the rest of my life !

2E'04, Hell was I glad i attended the BBQ that night, I almost gave it a miss. It's cool how not all of us bother talking to each other but when all of us gather, the spirit is evident. It's so different, anybody'd think we're one buncha friends who hang out ever so often, love the stupid, laughable things we do. THANK YOU !

Sihui, Linz, my beloved MRFF ! We sorta got to know each other in quite a random manner but we still can manage so much crap when we meet up. We MUST meet up occasionally, because the both of you are people i love& dont wanna lose (: Thank you both of you, for listening to my shit too, though not as often !

Yu Song, it's a bit late for this, but thank you for accompanying me through the virgin years of my sec schl life. You tell people you changed me, alright that was kinda true to an extent. Thank you for wonderful times, &for teaching me so much shit back then. I'm glad we can remain friends (:

DarylLim, Fatgong (excess booze& chocs HAHA) I could go on about the things I want to thank you for. You made me feel so much better when my Dad left us, with your encouragement& all. Never thought I'd say this when I got to know you, but you're one helluva person with high EQ, and another I can hold a conversation of wits with, always entertaining& amusing. You, like Dii, never fail to make me laugh. (No wonder same tourgroup) Here's someone who actually puts effort in a friendship, "okay no one word shit" when i ap-ed you about it then. Thanks for your willingness to share,(EXCEPT YOUR BROTHER'S NAME) to regard me as one of the few closer female friends& to listen to me rant/gush ;D Much love, goodfriend-who-has-a-jersey-worthed-8-bucks-more-with-so-much-less-defects !

ChuaSiangYee, The best(friend) for the last indeed. This has been quite a year of awakening. I thought about it& there's quite a lot of things I want to say& it's hard to start ? This year you taught me, in a way, how not to be so gullible& just about everything else. I still insist it was fate that got us sharing& listening to each other so often it became a routine. Im glad I still have a friend I can count on or talk to when I need a shoulder. Definitely haven't been as close as before, but thankyou for trusting me, for niaoing me, for making me feel like a good friend all over at times. I will always remember that particular phone call at 5am or so, yep that was memorable. You'll find a girl who deserves you one day. (Thank + love)you BestFriend !

i want to thank Miss Yap too, for the comfort she offered in sec3, for standing up for me when i was going through some rough patch after my Dad..
Kim Keat for bitching with me here& there about people we dont know; feels better when i need to let it out.
Kenneth for putting your trust& confidence in me, sampling songs, problems, whatever Chengyi, Stella, for being really good friends, crapping& balling& everything, esp Chengyi for our "deeper" talks.
Pinrui for everything you've done for me, i really appreciate it& you'll always be the brother I know& cherish (:


wah too long too late.
FUCK I HAVE TO WAKE AT 7 TMR.
gotta tell them to read tmr cause some of the mentioned, like Dan& Siang, dont read this blog.
rarh im just so, grateful.
those chunks were the muchshortened&edited version of what i actually wrote in my diary, so yeah, whatever, TGIF-2 !
hmm take it as Thank God It's Friday Too !

♥ XOXO ♥