.. 18:53 hrs

sometimes you wish people'd realise you aint having a good day
wish they'd lend a shoulder, an outlet for you to pour mercilessly
but how can they when you subconsciously mask your emotions so well ?

i sink to the lowest low
not realising what is it that has affected me so
until i stone& reflect.
ah, then the mist begins to clear& i see it.
much as i hate to admit it, im really afraid.

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hmm today felt like a dont-talk-so-much, let-lyrics-swarm-in-head, dont-feel-like-eating, number1-stone-girl, sing-as-much-as-i-want, run-my-ass-off day.
but it was a different kind of song-singing mood, very much different.


ive had Half Alive on repeat for almost 24hours now.


EDIT@ 2042h

i always write better when im feeling like shit.
so, hey look ive written something im pretty satisfied with atm.
ask if you want to see it, yar.

♥ XOXO ♥