.. 23:45 hrs

my pride ensures that i brush away all traces of bad memories from the surface
but there are painful reminders everywhere
present are the occasional relapses too, into chronic moroseness, though i keep telling myself ive moved on.

i watch shows on tv, &it reminds me too much of myself
of this wreck that i've been thriving in ever since
but how can i ever get out, ever betray my conscience ?
it's only right i remain here.

i promised someone i'd share this with him one day.
but when i want to do so he's not around.

*

i'd hate to lose anyone again.
lets just end this abruptly.

♥ XOXO ♥